Recap

I’m alive and kinda back. I went crazy for a while which explains my absence. I’m 80% sane again so I think I’m safe enough to blog.

Aside from my temporary loss of sanity, a lot has happened over the past month, but nothing life changing though.

There was the Operation Smile Medical Mission at NOPH last April 9-11. I didn’t get to see the actual operation itself since I work at the Surgery ward so we’re basically post-op but still, it was amazing to see children enter the OR with lip deformities and come out not instantly well, but you know for a fact that their lives are about to change. It’s true what they said in their website, “A 45-minute surgery is all that it will take to put a smile back on these children’s faces.”

It was heartwarming enough to know that they did this for free, but it was even more touching to find out that all the Operation Smile staff were volunteers, from the surgeons, nurses, assistants and all. Plus, all the OpSmile patients received free medications to take home after being discharged. They really are amazing. The whole experience was amazing.

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After that, there was Operation Tuli sponsored by PNOC in a small baryo in Dauin last April 22. It was my first time and I went there thinking I’d be observing the doctors and helping out prepare the equipments, but I was WRONG. They actually made us do the actual operation! After observing two procedures, the doctors encouraged us (first-timers) to try it. It was nerve racking at first, but when we got the hang of it, it was actually easy. So yeah, we felt like surgeons that day. Hehe. No pictures of the actual procedure since everyone was busy.

Us girls with our Head Nurse

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I now have to wear glasses. Not permanently, just when using the computer, reading or anything that causes eye strain. It actually started with lightheadedness and reached to the point that I everything spins around when I lie down. There was a time when I had to walk really slowly to prevent myself from hitting things or people because I was dizzy all the time.

I had my eyes checked and asked if I had worn glasses before. I told her I was supposed to wear one when I was in 6th grade due to Astigmatism but never really took it seriously. She asked me to read something on the wall. She was like, “Can you even read that?” and I told her that I could read them clearly and she seemed confused. I told her I didn’t have a problem with my eyes, just the dizziness which occured mostly after I spent loooooooong hours infront of the PC. She said that my Astigmatism was back and I had to wear glasses to correct them.

I don’t mind wearing them, besides, I only wear them at home and mostly in my bedroom so nobody has to see me and my red dorky glasses. It’s actually convenient since I’ve started reading this past few months. I could not endure reading for more than an hour since my head would ache which explains why it takes my two weeks to finish a book. And recently, Murakami’s Dance Dance Dance has been lying on my bedside since March and I am nowhere near finish line. I recently purchased Time Traveller’s Wife but told myself not to touch the book until I finish Murakami so right now, it’s sitting on my bookshelf serving as my motivation to finish the book.

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The half of summer is almost over and I have not been to the beach except for that family reunion we attended a few weeks ago. It was a family reunion of my mom’s grandparents clan so I didn’t know most of them. Nonetheless, it was fun meeting new people and new relatives.

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And oh, that thing I badly wanted? I didn’t get it. Or maybe not yet. Not losing hope but I probably won’t feel as bad if I don’t get it at all. But I’m still crossing my fingers.

Aisha, Chester, jassy, Rachel, mia

Will You Get It?

If you asked God for SOMETHING:

*you want so badly that everything around you somehow reminds you of that thing
*you know is bad for you
*you know everyone who cares wouldn’t want that “thing” for you
*you know would probably not do you any good in the end
*you know would probably change the way you look at life in the future

and told HIM:

*that you’re willing to take the risk just this once
*that you’re ready to face the consequences no matter how bad it may be
*that you’re aware that you’re some kinda asking Him to ruin your life a lil bit (because you know that all of this probably won’t do any good to anyone including you)
*that you know that chances of things turning out for the better is VERY slim
*that you’re aware that what you’re asking for is practically insane and that you know life would be much simpler if you didn’t ask for this
*that you’ve readied yourself for failure and know that you will cry but will get over it
*that no matter how damaging (for the lack of a better term) the results may be, you know in your heart that it will only make you stronger..

and lastly..

..you know He probably wouldn’t grant it because it’s not good for you in the first place but still ask anyway because you know He knows how badly you want it and hope that He gives you this one itsy bitsy chance and if you could have it the soonest time possible if it’s not too much because you’re running out of time.

Do you think He’ll give it to you?

What I’m asking is actually very mababaw that it isn’t even worth posting. You’d probably think I’m insane for making it such a big deal. No miracles. No moving of mountains. Just something very minor that anyone could do for me, something even I can do on my own, but know that it’s gonna fail coz I know it’s not meant for me to start with. But that’s that so let’s leave it at that.

Will be back when I’m in a better state of mind. See you at your blogs!

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P.S. Please ignore the trackers on my sidebar. There’s just something I need to find out for a few weeks. It’s got nothing to do with all of you so don’t worry, I’m not trying to track anybody

Aisha, Rachel, jassy